So I used to keep my Xanga updated all the time. But that's just getting old. So I decided I'd make this deviant art thing of mine a little bit more "spiffy"....Holy mother of cow today just dragged on and dragged on! test every hour..BUT on the bright side I'm not going to have to repeattt the ninth gradeee yeahhh! Well not as far as this semester goes! After school I went to micheal's house. Uh, I slept a lot. I've realized that I'm really good at sleeping.
My sister, Andrea or w/e (whom I have never met) Asked for my address, I'm thinking she's going to send me something for christmas! AND IT'S ABOUT DAMN TIME after fourteen frickkin years.
Today I didn't feel so great, threw up a few times and after school I was fine..? hmph. It only figures, So I guess Micheal is going to Tylers tomorrow since it's his birthday and all. Right now i'm all itchy and I think I'm going to die..heh...NO NO it's not like the normal itch! it's like..skin peeling off itch?
So I hope everything is okay between Micheal's friends and I.
I tried to sort things out. I hope it was good enough! my skin is burning.. Uh...kay...well I'm tired so ima go.

Alright, these things are very hard for me. So I'm going to try to make this list as small as possible. But it probably won't turn out that way, I'll begin bye listing your names and why I've acted the way I do..(HINT) it's mostly all jealousy. Most likely you're on this list.

1. Brandi
I love you so much and I'm so happy we're bestfriends again. Although we're not fighting I'd like you to know I'm sorry for everything I've said in the past that hurt you.

2. Dyana Malloy
I actually have a lot to say about you. And I actually think you're going to be the hardest for me to explain this to. OKAY, well there are many reasons I didn't like you one being I was almost one hundred percent sure that Micheal liked you, And I didn't want you to take him away. I'm a very stupid jealous person. And I know I've said sorry to you before or whatever but this time I'm actually going to try to sort it out. And I'm sick of going around trying to hate you for something you didn't do. I don't expect you to understand this. But I have a weird mind. And when other people are around the ones I love, I get really strange and jealousy starts to pour. And I'm sorry for everything I said to you. I take it all back.

3. Dustin Wallis
OKAY when you said you wanted to make out with my micheal (again my jealousy starts to show) I got mad and began to hate you. Don't really hate you blah blah yadda yadda.

4. ASHLIE COX
I've acted really sweet to you and still have no real problem with you but I think I should hear MY opinion.
I'm sick of you telling people not to do this, not to do that! You're so dramatic! you expect to write something bad about someone and not to get something bad written about you (NOTE) The world does not revolve around Ashlie Cox. There are many other people to think about besides yourself. Thats all.

5. Micheal Allen Moore.
The real reason I decided to write this stupid journal is because I realized how awful and terrible I'm being to you. I'm not treating you like you should be treated, Not only are you the sweetest guy in the world but you're my bestfriend and you deserve to be trusted. I know I can be such a bitch and not consider your feelings. And all the times I've done such horrible things to you. So I'm going to keep you last becuase yours will be longest.

I love you so much Micheal, And I'm so wrong for doing all the things I've done to you, I've said things I didn't mean and you've said things that have done nothing but make my life better. You are the best guy in the world (in my opinion) I know that you understand me more than anyone else can, and you listen to me. And my jealousy is going to make our whole relationship fall apart. I'm dragging you down! I want you to go to college at a really nice college, even if it means you'll be far away. I want you to get good grades even if it means I won't see you every day. There are so many things that are more important that me. But I just pull you further and further down. You ARE the only one I want to have memories of wedding photos and share my life with and if I don't stop it'll ruin it all! I am going to promise and this time I mean it I WILL NEVER NEVER do the awful things I have already done to you again. I'm sorry for hurting you and making your life miserable. You are now free to say anything about me you want. I understand you have your friends and I have mine. But I always pictured...oh nevermind. I just wanted you to know how much you really mean to me. Becuase I hardly ever state it and you deserve to have anything you possibly want and I wish I could give it to you but I can't but if I could, I would.
You are the world to me.
I love you baby, And don't ever forget that!


an exual sorry to all of you.-